Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Defining "big"

We have a big dog. Abby is golden retriever/black lab mix... 70 pounds.. big enough to leave us little room when she sleeps on the bed. Yes, she sometimes sleeps on the bed. However, I've always said that if we got a second dog, I'd want a "big" dog-a Great Dane, a malamute, something like that...



Enter Entropy. Entropy is Abby's new foster brother... an Anatolian Shepherd, 150 pounds... gorgeous. He gives a new definition to the word "big". Now we know that Abby is actually small! Anatolians are from Turkey, where they defend sheep from bears... thus their size and strength. Entropy belongs to a family from church, who are from MN, but attending grad school at UW. Entropy had been living in MN with family, but the family needed a break, is getting older, and tired. So we have him for awhile. How long is awhile? Who knows, who cares! He's adorable! He's a giant teddy bear, he thinks he's a lap dog... he's funny. He's a mush, and Abby seems to be doing ok so far. So now we have a big dog!
































Saturday, October 28, 2006

Recent Pix

We, like most people, have been quite busy in the past three weeks, and I have photographed some of our goings on... here are some highlights.. more to come later.


Dane County Farmer's Market










Farmer's Market Mums









Clergy Retreat at Covenant Harbor-practicing for the Pumpkin Lob









Clergy Retreat-Fish Boil












laughing at the UW Womens Hockey Game... photo by a 7-year old

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

a Pastor's makeup, as in mascara, eye shadow, etc..

Last Sunday I forgot to put on makeup. It's not like I'm Tammy Faye or anything. Makeup isn't the most important part of my day, and I put on a bare minimum. But that bare minimum is enough to give me the impression-true or false- that I'm put together. I don't know what happened this past Sunday. Shortly before church started, I went into the restroom, and when I looked in the mirror, I gasped. I had no makeup with me at church. Nothing. I'm not the type who carries makeup around, except when I think I might cry, and will need to reapply. I could do nothing, except be a pastor without makeup that day.

I messed up during the service. I said "sins" instead of "debts" in the Lord's Prayer.. My Pastoral prayer was a little "off", I felt.. The fact is, lacking that bare minimum of makeup made me feel not-at-all-together. It's not like anybody else noticed, or if they did they didn't say anything. I suppose that would be a strange thing to say, "Hey, did you forget your makeup today?" I noticed--once I looked in the mirror. (I wonder if I hadn't looked in the mirror if I would have noticed eventually?) And I felt wrong, all morning.

It got me to thinking.. that's what time with God's supposed to do for me each day, isn't it? I admit, my devotional life has been less-than satisfactory lately. My struggles with God because of this ongoing pain of infertility and adoption delays have sometimes left me not wanting to read my Bible, or pray.. especially in the morning, because I usually tear up when reading the Bible, and then I'd have to reapply makeup. But I digress. Daily time with God should be more than the bare minimum, and it's intention is not to cover anything up, like a face-that-is-too-pale.. rather, it can be the glue that puts us together for the day. Not protecting us from harm, from bad days, from the world caving in around us.. but providing some strength and sustenance to help us respond and manage a bit better. And hopefully we grow closer to God. That's the idea.

So, hopefully this Sunday I'll remember my makeup. But more importantly, hopefully everyday I'll spend time with God, gaining strength for the day, listening to God's voice, praying for others and self, and resting in God's Word. At least that's the idea.

Friday, October 06, 2006

things that make me smile


Abby and Jim on one of our walks







Fall Colors








wildlife in Glendale Neighborhood
(again, on our walk)






At the World Dairy Expo

an adoption primer/the reasons i'm easily sad

We're adopting from China-no news there. Most who read this know this, and if you did not know it, you know it now.

Now the primer.

Dossier=the huge mountain of paperwork that adoptive parents go through. This can take about three months to compile, and includes retrieving copies of birth certificates (Jim's and mine), wedding certificate, reference letters, signed physical forms from doctors, etc.
Log In Date (LID) = the day that our Dossier is officially logged in with the CCAA (China Center of Adoption Affairs), in China. Our LID is January 12, 2006.
Referral Date = the day we receive a name/a few stats/an orphange photo of our Chinese daughter.
Travel Approval (TA) = the date we are given to travel to China....usually 6-8 weeks after referral date.
Expiration Dates = the dates on which some of our Dossier documents expire, and we have to have them renewed... costing us more money.

When we first began this process (June 2005), the referral time was 6-8 months, which was hard enough following painful years of infertility. Last November, the same weekend we found out our embryo transfer-our last hope of medical help with getting pregnant-we found out that the referral time was being extended. I can't remember exactly how long, at that point. And that's not important. Lately, since early summer I think, we've been told that the referral time is 13 months, and we should expect it to lengthen more. Well the other day we got official word that it has lengthened to 14 months, and will continue to lengthen more.

So, all summer we hoped that our Referral would come in February... traveling in March or April. Now, it seems that we won't get a referral until March, at the earliest date. I cannot believe this. I honestly cannot believe this. I feared it, I honestly did not think it would really get this long.

Oh, and by the way.. those expiration dates? They should have been fine, but as things are currently proceeding, they will expire before we travel to China, meaning that we have to pay over $700 to renew these documents.

Meanwhile friends get pregnant, friends have babies, friends get to spend money and time planning for babies, buying baby stuff... we get to wait...and watch...and hope that someday soon we get to spend money on a daughter instead of on renewing paperwork we have already spent money on.

These are the reasons I'm easily sad.